Friday, March 11, 2016

Crossroad

I've been thinking a lot about forgiveness, loving your enemies and HOW the heck do I walk this very difficult thing out?!


I never thought I had a forgiveness issue. 
As a matter of fact I've always been extremely forgiving, almost to a fault.


I didn't think it was an issue until I was on the other end of needing forgiveness.
I feel like I've been blind sided with the level of difficulty this is because I've had so much to be forgiven for. 

I'm standing in front of a crossroad of gratefulness and "Yeah but they..." 


As I've been struggling so greatly, I keep asking God "How are You able to do this?!"

Love doesn't keep a record of wrongs yet We do. 
He forgives our sins "as far as the east is from the west" yet we say "I'll forgive you BUT I'll NEVER forget!"


We measure our sins at a much smaller height than other's sins when the Word says if I break ONE I'm guilty of breaking them all. Ouch!


Here I am, crying out for mercy but am the one holding on to the trespasses of others. 

So wrestling with what it all looks like and how to be like Jesus who said, "Forgive them, they know not what they do."
And I'm like, " Oh they knew what they were doing alright when they did this to me!"
But at the EXACT same time I'm excusing myself for not being in my right mind for the things I've done. 


Frankly, I still mess things up.

UGH the conundrum of it all!!!
Just keeping it real folks.


Love and Peace,
Julie